10, 000 Feet (To You)
Sometimes taking a 10,000-foot view can be amazing.
Sometimes, however, taking a 10,000-foot view can be one of the most challenging things a human can do. I am not going to lie, these past several months have been relatively challenging for me. Not because I moved. Not because I had a tough break up, but because I miss things
True, This move has been an amazing experience, but for me, it has been full of fake smiles. I talk to my friends that I have just started bonding with, but with a fake smile. True it helps me forget my worries, but it also reminds me of what I used to have.
This all started on the plane ride home. We were just cruising along, 10,000 feet above the surface of the earth, when a feeling shot me right in my heart.
That gut-wrenching feeling that you get in the pit of the stomach when you see someone or something for the last time. I am not saying that I am dying, I am just saying that this 10,000-foot view took me back.
All at once all of these memories came flooding back into my head. Those memories from the time when one of my friends ditched me in Hurricane Harbor, and chasing him around skull mountain, to the time when I went sledding in a middle of the Blizzard of 2011 in my backyard. Those friends that I had made that I would probably never see again unless they came down here.
To you, that true love that almost was, I still think of you. I know I have done something that hurt you, and you returned the favor. I would like to ask for forgiveness, I hope that you accept them.
To you, I still remember that time when I sprained my ankle for the first time at your house. Your family was amazing in helping me out. You were there when they wrapped up my ankle, and you helped me focus on the more important things.
To you, Behind that bar, at Bittersweet, I will never forget our interactions. It was you who helped me break out of my shell in the workplace. I still think about you from time to time. That time when you helped me out with some food. I still owe you that three bucks.
The list goes on and on, and I doubt I will be able to highlight you all, Here at 10,000 feet. Just cruising along. Lord knows how fast we are going, as we currently fly over. All these memories continue to flood my mind.
To you, Back at the golf club, I will always remember when we were sitting out on the deck, just talking about life. I hope that whole situation with your Ex got sorted out, but then again, who knows.
The regrets are starting to come to the surface now.
To my Ex, I wish that I would have communicated more, but you moved away, I had work and school, and you worked the graveyard shift. I suppose that the dagger was the move to Milwaukee, but then again, who really knows.
To you, My friends at church and formal high school graduating class, I wish I would have said goodbye to you in person, and let you know what was happening and kept you in the loop. I still miss you all from time to time.
To the jerk who sat behind me, and bullied me on the bus ride home, I forgive you. I don't think I said that to you in person, but I hope you will stumble across this.
Truth be told, I am starting to understand that everything happens for a reason. It could be the song that is pumping through my earbuds, or it could just be that a realization is starting to develop inside. A maturity maybe? An understanding? Maybe even Trust?
Truth be told, I know that when everything seems to spiral out of control, You are there. In the storm, the trials, the desperation: You are there. When those kids got shot at, you were there in the subtle actions of the teachers that saved the students. Even when I set foot on new turf, building a new foundation: You are there.
This you is different though. This you is with a capital Y. Just like the capital G in God. So when I set forth in a new direction, I will always know that this You will always be in control, no matter how bad the situation may seem.
There is no trial, no test, no grounds that this You has stepped on. When 2 or more believers are gathered in YOUr name: This YOU is there, going through life. Step by step. Pace for Pace.
This You is my You and your You. This You is there if you look for it. This You is in the wind that moves the leaves. This you is in the tides that work like clockwork, everywhere in the world. This you... THIS YOU... is the one and only real Triune God.